while you are waiting

welcome to Leo Szn!!! can you tell from my enthusiasm that part of my astrological chart is in Leo?  this part of my chart inspires me to conjure and refresh my commitment to what i am most loyal to. i feel i have the gift to traverse any darkness and find (likely co-create with the gift of Spirit) my own light.  so Darkness is not a threat, but an opportunity. i also realize not everyone bends this way.  

in Lizzo’s new album, Special, i’ve been riffing off the lyrics in 2 Be Loved (Am I Ready): “i did the work / it didn’t work / that truth / goddamn/ it hurts.”  this anthem has so much resonance now.  

but, the desire for immediate manifestation causes more anxiety.  why? the locus of control has been placed outside of oneself. stuff outside of ourselves are constantly changing which makes us feel we are always changing. that’s exhausting and disorienting!

so what do you do while you wait for [you, your family, this country, the world] to change?

1) trust – the work you have done has impact –at times unseen

2) process – change takes time 

3) unwavering attention – keep envisioning and moving as if your action was activated

4) patience – wait like you’re waiting for a 7-course feast

5) non-attachment –  this word sometimes makes me cringe but then i think about all the Ancestors, blood and otherwise, who were dreaming big, dreaming for me and they didn't even know me.  this means we have loyalty and devotion to the path, to the feast, and realize, we may not get to see it with our own eyes or live in it or eat it. but someone we love will. so many someones.  

can you hold out for that kind of big?

it can help not to feel you have to hold alone.  besides, we were meant to move in community. many people in these times have formed digital communities in the absence of being able to physical be spaces. this is one amazing way to extract the good of this tool of the internet that has grown so quickly. 

my gifts in the in-between spaces – the while you are waiting times.  i recognize many of our front-running leaders are tired, feel obligated to keep going even though they deeply need rest and i am here to offer respite. the civil rights era should have taught us that moving in that kind of way – exhaustion, few leaders, etc – is not sustainable. so in the service of community care, i look forward to not only teaching but empowering leaders to co-create spaces with me in mutual care of one another and those we have dreamt of. 

will you join me while you are waiting for things to change?